snow

When it snows in England there is always a strange panicky excitement not easy to define. We love it and we loathe it. Some of us love it. Some of loathe it. Some of us love it and loathe it at the same time. Given our prediliction for talking inanely about the weather, no one is surprised to hear that we have plenty to say about the snow. It gives us a new topic of conversation, especially in February. It staves off the boredom. We have been talking about 'this bloody rain' for approximately ten months by the time we reach February. Twelve months if its been a 'bad' Summer.

You are unlikely to meet an English person who is indifferent to snow. "I like it... when I'm inside', is a common sentiment on the first day. "I think it is magical...until it turns to slush" on the second. "I'm bored with it now" on the third. "I hate this [expletive of choice] snow, its so [expletive of choice] cold" by the fourth. The "its so [expleteive of choice] cold" is said with a deadpan seriousness as though no one had ever noticed that before. When we declare that "its so [expletive of choice] cold" we look each other directly in the eye, shaking our heads in bewilderment, eyebrows frozen in shock. It is as though the great thermostat above the English Isle has 'packed up again'.

This year our weather people have started calling it 'The Snow Event'. It is as though it is a Government-funded experiment. Another one. 'The Snow Event' depending upon which end of the 'love it or 'loathe it' spectrum you are sitting will not escape you if you are English. In fairness to Gordon Brown, he is a Scot and a smattering of snow might not be seen by him as an event. On the other hand, he isn't well-known for his imagination. The £1.2 billion loss of income today resulting from The Snow Event should be proof, it isn't just a bit of fun for Gordon at this boring time.

But it is so beautiful and mesmorising. I think it is eventful, in a different way. It does disrupt normality for us in England. It makes us think and it changes our perspective. It also makes us remember. Snow, in England, is out-of-the-ordinary. Snow is a remarkable type of weather that is sporadic and unpredictable and forces us to lose control of our environment. Because it is relatively rare, compared to rain, we remember the times when it happens. Snow unsettles us as it settles, bringing back our own personal 'snow events'.

It unsettles me because Snow makes me nostalgic, even a little sentimental. Each snowflake dances another feeling into me from nowhere. A need to cry. A buzz of excitement. A feeling of joy. A sigh at the beauty a slick white lick of snow can create from a featureless urban landscape. The joy and the tears jumble, I don't know what they are, or why they are visting me now. But then the memories come. Now I am five and riding my new bike for Christmas, my brother lets go, there are no stabilisers, I fall into the soft white coldness. Now I am older, holding my white fluffy stray rabbit in the moonlight and the thick snowy landscape. The rabbit bites me and runs away and I am bleeding into the whiteness. Now I am with my friends thick icy lumps sticking to my gloves, we are soaked with thawed snow laughing helplessly on a sledge or a tea tray, racing down a slight incline over the bald spots where the grass shows through. We are thawing out, our hands looped around hot cups of home-made chocolate. We are treading delicately on thick ice and whacking each other with snow balls. We are standing in snowdrifts so big we can hide in them, dwarfed by the magnificent sculpture of nature. The days when overnight everything transformed into a wonderland of play.

Some of us can become children again when it snows. We remember the need for play, for fun and for laughter. There is that magic and we rediscover it, melting as soon as we catch it like a snow drop on our tongue. Poor old Gordon, I bet he wishes it was his idea.